caffeine

Here is what a friend said to me last night: "Caffeine is a psychotropic drug. And not because it causes you to hallucinate another reality. Because it causes you to hallucinate this reality."

Wow. He's got me thinking there, for sure. But not quite ready to give up coffee. Maybe soon, but not yet. Not because I want my drug, my crutch - I don't. It's a hope in getting free, to be eventually caffeine-free, and to live with no crutches. But until something seems real for more than 5 minutes - which happens very seldom, lately - I'm sticking with my familiar hallucination. Which at least allows me to pretend that I have the energy, the motivation, the reason, to engage another day of unreality.